My love Problems

I am in Tenth Grade, and I love every minute of it. I just wish the love part of high school would be easier.

I have the worst time on keeping a boyfriend. I have the best guy that treats me right, makes me feel pretty, makes me feel like me. And somehow I can never keep him near. He just runs away. I had a good guy for like three months. He was the best, at the time. He made me feel like I was his everything. In the morning when we were waiting for the bell to ring, he would come up and stand with my friends and me and hug me and let me lean against him. He made me think that he was the one. I was so happy; I thought that I could never find someone better. I thought he was the one. I thought that I would marry him one day. Well that didn't happen. Well we kept dating on and off for a year. Well then I met the guy that was so perfect there was nothing wrong with him. But everything was wrong with me. I have the worst relationship problems because I have fear of getting too close. Then I met the next guy and we started to date, and I broke up with him for that first boy I told you about. I was so stupid. I regret it oh so much now. I then stayed single. I went out with my friend again this year. I thought it was going to work now. I thought because I was older now that I could stay with a guy. Well not so much. We went out for like two months. The longest I went out with a guy is for three months. Well now I just got dumped. We went out for like three days.

Now I am talking to this wonderful guy. I am so happy. I have never been happier to hear that I am sweet or I am a best friend. I have not been so happy that I am told that I like you. I know what my problems where in the past relationships. I move way too fast. I am learning that if you want something you have to give it time to grow. You just can't go out and expect to have grapes after just a week. You need to let them grow. You need to give them love and caring. Just like in a relationship. You can't just after a few days of talking to someone expect them to love you and what not. I have been in a split family my whole life. Some people, like my stepsister, say all the time I know what you are going through. But they don't. Their parents got a divorce when they were in high school. They had time with their parents together. I didn't. That is half of my problem. I do love my step family. They are not really like my step family anymore. I am so happy because I have so much more love than anyone can ask for.